Sometimes I wish I didn’t know as much as I do…
I mean…I’m sure the Bible is a great read…but seeing as I already know the main character dies in the end is there any real reason for me to go back and read it through?
(Spoiler alert…I hear he comes back…)
I’ve spent so much time analyzing the relationships of other people that I’ve learned to spot the early signs of failure….
The unnecessary fights when neither side seems to comprehend the views of the other…
The Insecurities that are never addressed and are allowed to grow heavier and heavier with each passing night…
The constant power struggle between two elements…The passionate intensity of fire being doused by the more serene nature of water…or the wandering personality of air being bound to a single spot by the resolute nature of earth…
No matter how you look at it, spiritually, philosophically or psychologically and no matter what the reasons are, the signs of incompatibility are exactly the same Every-Single-Time.
Now naturally, being the idealist that I am, I try to ignore the signs when they happen to me (because of course, my relationships are an exception and can't possibly subscribe to the same rules as everybody elses).
I ignore the very signs that I point out to countless friends in countless other scenarios…
I ignore the very signs that keep me up till
I suppose it’s kind of like being a doctor with a cold…
to most people it’s obviously ‘just a cold’ but to a medical professional…it could be ANYTHING…I mean a doctor knows about all of the illnesses and conditions that start off with ‘cold like symptoms’…and even though he might tell himself (or herself…modern society and all) that it’s ‘probably just a cold’ you just cant switch off the medically trained mind.
In the past few weeks I’ve consulted Psychology books, sociology Blogs, Star charts, and even the Chinese Zodiac…all in a hope to disprove something that my own instincts and academic experience have been telling me from the start….
Much like a doctor, there’s just no switching of the analytical mind…and the analytical mind tells me… ‘This simply isn’t going to work and you both know it’.
Now I suppose I could fight on…I mean this free spirited Horse (according to the Chinese) could pretend to be a strong and resolute Dragon all he wants…but every once in a while I’m gonna be called on to breath fire…or I’m going to want to forget work and roam through a whole new field for the day…and no matter how much either of us asks the other to join in…our very natures will invariably let us down…
I repeat what I said at the beginning… ‘Sometimes I wish I didn’t know as much as I do'
Because more often than not, the things you know, are in direct opposition with what you want.
It’s
I suppose it’s a lot to ask…probably more than an ‘ENFP’ (according to Psychologists) like me is likely to find , but I guarantee it’ll still be on the top of my Christmas list....
Every-Single-Time
P.S
Although I am super skeptical of personality analysis, both spiritual and psychological …I have to admit both the Chinese (horse) and the Myer Briggs indicator (ENFP) have me pretty much spot on to an almost scary degree. Perhaps worth checking out…
I cant believe I went all this time believing I was a Capricorn! I’m nothing like a Capricorn!
Gemini 4 life!!!
Recommended Reference:
Chinese zodiac
http://www.chinesezodiac.com/ Calculator for Chinese year
http://www.usbridalguide.com/special/chinesehoroscopes/Horse.htm -Great for additional detail
Western Zodiac
http://www.astrology.com.au/12signs/index.asp Pretty awesome site in general…
Psychology
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp - Quick, easy, accurate test...
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